I’ve always had a small amount of anxiety and always bit my nails. But I was able to control it and not let it affect my life too much. But last summer my 23-year-old cousin was killed in a car accident. We were very close and after the funeral I thought I was OK. But I wasn’t. I could not stop thinking how this could happen, my cousin one I grew up with was gone. It affected my work and my relationships with my wife and kids.
Last December we were on a road trip with my family. My wife was pregnant with my now current daughter and we’re on our way to a Christmas party with my son and my sister-in-law and my niece. It was a 2 Hour Drive and I noticed in the car that I didn’t wanna eat anything at all and I felt extremely tired and sad. It was something I never felt before because I’ve never had an issue eating and I’m a very happy person. When we got to the Christmas party which was in a hotel we went up to the room and I just laid on the bed and felt like I was really really sick with no other side effects.That whole first day I didn’t eat anything and I wasn’t talking at all. That night everyone seem to figure out that it was anxiety except me and my mother-in-law got me a giant glass of red wine to which I chugged. After that I got my appetite back I was more outgoing. But I wasn’t going to constantly drink when I was anxious. The next day we headed home and my wife drove because I was feeling anxious again and not eating. So I called my doctor and made an appointment.
At the doctors I explain to my doctor everything that was going on. And I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. They prescribed me Lexapro at 10 mg. I started taking it that day and the first week was terrible.
I have never taking prescription medication on a daily basis in my entire life I try to avoid it. But this medicine save my life. Although the first week was probably the worst I’ve ever felt. The side effects were diarrhea, always feeling thirsty and of course the worst amplified anxiety. And the amplified anxiety was awful at work all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and go hide somewhere. At home it was the same thing and I hated it because I love my kids more than anything I almost gave up on it. But on day seven it was like a light turn on. The side effects disappeared and I felt amazing. Since that day seven I have never felt anxious. I will say it again this medication save my life. Now I have a great relationship with my family and it’s getting stronger.