CrossFit Week 2
I have never been a patient person. I won’t even pray for patience because I don’t have the time to be tested.
But this past week, I have come face to face with the fact that patience is part of this process.
Six months ago, I was 40 pounds heavier. My lower back hurt, my hip flexors woke me up aching in the middle of the night, and I had weak ankles, which made it difficult to stand for long periods of times.
A few years ago, I had finally gotten to a place where I could accept the fact that due to genetics and years of failed attempts at losing weight, these were just the cards I was dealt.
“Life is like a game of cards — you don’t get to choose the hand you’re dealt. You only have control over how you play them.”
I’ve heard this quote a few times over the years.
A very skinny friend, one who tried to ‘help’ by reminding me I shouldn’t eat the piece of cake that was placed before me one evening at dinner. I’m sure she meant well as she pushed the cake out of my reach.
But back then, it was the beginning of another fitness failure in my life.
Since starting this new journey, I have thought a lot about the many times I tried to lose weight.
From middle school through most of my adult life, I could tell you stories of crazy, unhealthy, and even dangerous things I’ve tried.
It would show you the depth of my desperation to fit in and be accepted.
Each time I started a program or diet, it would only last a few weeks because the result wasn’t working fast enough. The process was hard, results were few, and I honestly believed I was destined to be the designated fat friend.
With nicknames like “Thunder Thighs, Bertha Butt, and Shamu,” it was difficult believing I could change my circumstances.
“The secret to change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new.” Socrates
Two of the biggest takeaways I learned this week are:
1- Fitness isn’t a destination; it is a journey. A destination has an end, but a journey never stops, no matter how long it takes.
It is so easy to focus on the number on the scale that you end up losing sight of non-scale victories.
Having more energy, better endurance, better sleep quality, clothes fitting better, and feeling healthier can show up faster than the scale moves.
2- It is a slow process, but quitting won’t speed it up.
I can look back and see all the attempts I made in the past, but they are no longer my focus.
My focus this time is building new healthy, consistent routines and knowing that my body can stand almost anything; it is my mind that I must continue to convince.